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Monday, June 9, 2008

Well, i know i have hurt you once again .
Its better for me and you to break as i find we aren't really a good pair .
I know i have good memories with you, but i don't know you well .
I guess don't even know you from the start.
The way you think etc .
You asked me to give you a 2nd chance .
But i guess, if i gave you a 2nd chance.
Would everything still be the same ? I don't know .
But its better for me and you .
We can't predict what might happened in the future if i still carries on .
Maybe the same thing might happened again .
& you will have another major hurt again ?
Then i guess by that time i would break with you .
Its would be better for me to do the decision now

I don't know why .
But i do stated clearly in my previous post that .
Thanks god we are still FRIENDS
F-R-I-E-N-D-S
Did i state anything that is refering me to like him again ?
No i didnt .
I said the memories are back and its fun .
Who wouldn't find good memories fun and would want to turn back time again ?
If it was you, i guess you would too .
& i asked you again .
Is it true that its easily to fall in love with someone but hard to forget ?
Its common sense .
If you go out and asked anyone that once love someone deep before.
You asked them, how long does they took them to forget ?
You would expect them to say maybe months or a year ?
Unless those that say few days then surely isn't serious about him / her already .

I don't know you have the same feelings of forgetting someone you didn't want to be parted ?
If yes, then obviously you will take you months to forget isn't it ?
Its normal .
but perhaps you didn't get what i mean.
& i didn't said i don't wanna talk to you because i was angry .
& i didn't talk to you doesn't mean im angry too .
Its just that i don't know what to say anymore .
You just think too much and wildly .
Its really unbearable to forget someone you love deeply.
So do think again what i wrote and refer to what situation you are having now.
Its exactly the same .

Me and Him are now friends .
Which im really very happy about it .
Currently now me and you are in the situation that is the same as last time what happened to me and him .
We didn't dare to talk to each other
As we thought both parties doesn't want to talk to each other .
But eventually we talk and talk more
& now, we are back to who we are ; the same as last time .
Well i hoped you think carefully.
& don't do silly stuff .
Im really not worth you to eat panadols etc .
& please don't misunderstood me that i still like him or what okay ?
I don't want any misunderstandings between me and him .
I don't want the same old thing to repeat that he will ignore and avoid me.
This is my bless that im friends with him again .
Please don't spoiled it .
So i hoped we can still be friends even though we aren't couple anymore.

The past is in Black and White .
The future is gonna be in colours .
Memories are gonna be kept untold where new things are going to emerge in our life

Ohwell, this is just a ramdom post(:
Had nothing better to do, so went to read my past archives / posts .
& i found out that there so much memories that are left behind .
Especially February 19(:
Its the day that i cried badly in my lifetime .
Few days ago, someone told me that he did that hurtful thing to me is because
he doesn't want me to think that he carry a torch for me .

Well to think back, its true.
Friends around me all encouraged me to continue to love him
Giving me comments that he does have a little bit of affection for me
As i have been playing with him.
Which makes me really believe in Fate .
But eventually the outcome wasn't what we thought of .
Seriously it was a disastrous outcome /:
Emo is my bestbud.
Crying is how i vent out my pain :D

& ohwell, to think back.
There's really alot of good memories with him .
Just think and recall, i would love to turn back time .
Once i said i didn't know how long would i take to forget you .
Its take 1 day to fall in love with someone but years to forget .
Years to forget .
Even though i told myself i forget about you already .
But when we are through Chalet etc .
I find out, its unbearable to forget you .
Because its fun being with you(:

Last time i was so happy that actually you did asked me whether could we still be friends
As i thought, you didn't want to talk to me after that incident.
& you have the same thoughts as me.
But we kept talking to each other and then we are friends again.
I was happy that i smiled after seeing what you wrote :D

Had a chat with Brendan just now
& he asked me whether do i believe in Fate .
But i answered don't know because once i did truly believed in it .
But ever since that incident happened .
Fate doesn't recognized in my world .
So i would hesitate awhile if you do ask me whether i believe in it or not .
& after that Conferencing with Brendan, Andrew and you is fun(:
Even though i didn't talk alot
But haha, you are funny in some ways :D
Well, Im happy that we are still be able to be friends but not enemy .
Im satisfied that we do still talk to each other but not ignoring and avoiding .
Thanks god .
I endure the pain .
To climb out of the dark pits that i had once fallen .
& to carry on with my life .
People would think im crazy that last time i cut my wrist because of you .
But to me its all worthwhile(:

Thanks God and you for still being friends with me .
I just hoped that we can be as much closer as last time we do :D

Friday, June 6, 2008

4 - 6 June ; FAMILY chalet :D
Im back once again(:
This time round, only Me, Minqi, Emma, Samuel, Andrew and Dominic stay over in the 1st night .
Then on the 2nd night, Josephine joined us :D
Okay, i am going to write full details about it & its gna be a long post :D

4june ; 1st Day :D
Woke up at 7am as Minqi is coming over to my house before going to school at 10 for POA meeting .
Then after meeting Brendan, Dominic, Minqi came over to my house to get the stuff ready .
& went to meet Samuel, Andrew and Emma :D
Was carrying lot of stuffs to the Interchange .
Waited for Samuel and Andrew for 20mins .
& we had to reach there by 2.30
So in the end, Minqi's Dad fetched us to downtown .
While Samuel and Andrew cabbed to there .
Reached there around 2plus & we saw one actor :D
Around our age and he damn freaking cute :D
Checked in & our room no. is 1309(:
Settle ourself down and watched Meteor Garden .
I was outdated, didn't watch it before x.x
Then Had a small argument with Dominic .
Shouted at me once again .
& well i took it as nothing happened .
Just bear my anger .
The guys went out walking while we girls stayed in the room
Sang songs, Pillow fight & watch tv :D
& we bought one bottle of Light sticks :D

At night, ate cup noodle & had another pillow fight w the guys .
& its damn freaking fun lar :D
Kept pillows, blankets and bedsheet in the closet .
So in the end, we use hands to tickle them :D
Ahaa, tickle Samuel is fun because he will make funny laughters ; ROFL
I just loved pillow fighting with them .
Around 2am, chitchatted with Andrew, Minqi and Emma in the room.
While Samuel and Dominic went out chatting .
& well, we found out that sooner or later the family is gonna break into 2 groups .
We just wanna solve this problem
& they thinks that sharing what unhappy stuff towards each of us is good .
So we get to learn our lesson & to become better :D
We intend to ton the whole night & go watch sunrise at 6.30
In the end, we all fell asleep at 4.30.

5june ; 2nd Day :D
Woke up at 11am and was still discussing whether to go Escape anot .
But the guys didn't want to go.
So in the end, we girls end up going there .
Ride a few rides and didn't play as Minqi vomited /:
Went back our room, the guys were still playing banluck.
But around 1plus, they went to Ehub while we slack in the room and watched Meteor Garden.
Around 4plus, the guys came back(:
Had some tiff with him and he shouted at me once again .
but seriously is very unreasonable.
Geraldine should be the one who will get angry because i accidentally pressed the cancel button.
But You are the one yelling at me because i kup the call .
& so this time round i couldn't bear my anger anymore.
So got very angry and cried .
But i cried is not because i was hurt as you shouted at me.
But as i was angry at you .
Okay nvms(:
Then soon they come back, started the fire
& Soon the Bbq starts :D
Almost everybody came except Dorothy, Freesia, Brendan, Siti and Kenn .
Sad D:
But nvms, hoped next Chalet everybody will be able to come for it :D

After Bbq, had waterbomb session .
Tio bomb by quite a no. of ppl lar -.-
Esepcially Suyu and Minqi's one.
i think both is on the head ; ROFL .
Then i kept aiming samuel and andrew :D
After all only the 6 of us were playing .
Cleared the plastic bags and went to bathe
& continue clearing the mess .
After that, watched Meteor Garden again while the guys go Ehub .
& Josephine is with us :D
Wanted to ton the whole night again .
But when the guys are back which is around 1 , i almost going to fall asleep.
& soon, i went to sleep then around 2plus .
Emma, Josephine, Samuel and Andrew went to Mac.
While Minqi , Me and Dominic went to sleep.

6june ; 3rd Day :D
Around 6am, i was woken up by Josephine's laughters.
She damn cute can ? :D
& Samuel is funny .
Swinging with the light stick and hit onto Andrew's head.
Soon, we were playing with the light sticks.
Threw at each other.
Took every single of it & throw :D
Its fun :D
Just as fun as the pillow fights.
Ahaaa, i Loved them(:
wanted to eat breakfast at 6.30 but extend till 7am as they wanted to get some sleep.
But at 6.50, Samuel and Andrew's laughters still can be heard
& soon they fall asleep .
& in the end, we woke up at 9(:
Packed everything and checked out.
Ate Mac for breakfast , then cabbed down to hougang.
Minqi came over to my house to do the decoration of our posters for tomorrow stall.
After that cabbed down to kovan to find Samuel and co. at superbowl :D
Played 2 rounds of bowling.
& i lost 2 points to brendan D:
But 1st time got 128 points sia :D
After bowling, went to arcade walked to Samuel's house.

Okay i think im very long winded.
So i shall stop here.
& lastly i hoped that end of year we will have another chalet :D
I hoped its gna be fun again :D

Sunday, June 1, 2008

Today is Me and Dominic 1st Month :D
Woke up at 9.15am and was supposed to meet him at 10
But he 9.46 then told me he just wake up x.x
Zhu tou :D
Was requested by him to dress in tube, short and boots :D
From top to bottom is white except for the boots .

So met Dar at 10.45 @ Hougang Control Station .
Trained to Ps and bought tickets :D
Went walking around the mall as there's still half an hour left .
Watched Accuracy Of Death .
Freaking funny and nice
& the main actor Takeshi Kaneshiro is freaking CUTE :D
Ahaaa , i like him (:
He shall be my 2nd idol that i like :D
I recommend your to watch .
You might not understand the story in the beginning
But the whole story actually links together :D
I certainly loved the song titled Sunny Day by Kazue Fujiki :D

After movie was around 3 , so trained to bugis as we intend to take neoprints :D
We wasn't that familiar with those machines.
So was quite dumb eh .
Didn't know what to choose etc .
We even went to the wrong machine to decorate the pictures
& when we finally knew it was at the other side of the machine .
Time up for choosing the pictures ; like wth -.-
Those pictures that i doesn't look good in it .
Decorate it and stuff :D
Then bused to kovan to eat dinner @ White Tangerine(:
Was sleeping on the bus and Dar said i had some sudden jump or whatever its call .
& i had it 5 / 6 times lar .
Damn stupid and Embrassing .
Ate dinner at 4.30 ; damn early but im hungry :D
So yeah ordered Black Pepper Chicken Steak ; Student meal :D
Chitchatted and after that ate Chocolate Fondue :D
Woots damn delicious and cheaper than Swensens .
It only cost for 7.50 :D

After eating decided to go home(:
& the time was still quite early so took bus 113 .
It traveled from Kovan to Hougang Ave 1 then back to Hougang Interchange .
Hahas , we had nothing better to do .
So took a longer bus ride rather than 112 :D
Took some pictures on the bus too
Dar walked me back home and chitchatted again(:

My Parents will be back tomorrow night
Yaye , I missed them :D
But i get to on the aircon in their room
So i can sleep on the big big bed :D
Wooots(:
Pictures will be uploaded in the next post then
Kinda Lazy :D

& Finally HAPPY 1ST MONTH ; DAR :D

Saturday, May 31, 2008

Fallen in the dark pit .
Where there is only myself .
Nobody in there ever understood me well .

Seriously i loathe going for band .
Its due to friendships problems ?
Even though , in band i have Shumei and her Clique .
But im not close with them .
I seldom talk to them either , its seems that im not friendly .
But main reason was that im those kind that is not open .
Which leads me to having no close friend except for Shumei , Sookchin and Claudia .
Sometimes i would talk to Claudia but sometimes i don't .
I know i have been skipping band very often .
But Nobody actually know why did i skip so many times .
I don't like to be left out alone , i Loathe that feeling .
I wasn't my ownself when im in band .
The true of myself is hyper, active and talkative .
But im not when im with the bandmates .

I don't feel right .
Sometimes , i regretted joining the cca .
People say band is fun .
But i don't feel so .
Because they are socialize .
Im not .
Only Sookchin is my closest friend .
Because i will talk to her normally likewise .
Shumei too , but not that open yet .
But, In band nobody ever seen me hyper or talkative before
Except Sookchin.
i know maybe partly is my fault as i didn't went to socialize with the people .

2 years ago , when im still a sec 1 kiddo .
I tend to skip band frequently due to this situation too .
But Allison helped me out and solved the problem .
I joined Shumei and her Clique .
But till today , its seems as if im still alone .
The problems happened 2 years ago are resumed back once again .
Last time i skipped band because of this .
And once again i skipped likewise .
Maybe your people may think this is just an excuse
You all got your own friends .
Some happened to come from the same class.
but how about me ?
I don't have someone that is the closest to me .
Non of my classmates is in band too .
The feeling is soo ridiculous i don't know how am i going to explain .
I Hated going band .
Because i don't wanna be left out or what .
Next year , My Batch sec 4s people are going to graduate .
Im the only on in the batch that is going to stay for another year .

I have been going through ups and down in band .
FUN is what people currently felt.
LONELINESS is what i felt.

Even if bandmates like you happened to read my blog .
& Miracles happened that the problem is solved .
I tell ya .
Its not gonna be solved easily .
Unless , i did really find someone who i can be much more open with .

But i still remember, i had a great memories in KL .
Where i did really become my true self with Sookchin .
Laughed and went crazy with her on the bus .
Took lot of crazy images together .
& in the hotel room .
Took crazy photos with Jasmine and Claire too .
That the only time, i felt happy and satisfied.
That i finally let myself out .
To be who i am, the crazy and talkative person .

& sorry sookchin .
I skipped band and left you alone .
I know its my fault .
But i can't help it .

I know sometimes band seems fun .
But, after all
Nobody can share the fun with me .
All i need to do now is to suffer for another 2 years with the kind of feelings im having

I guess non of the bandmates would read this either .
Im just posting for the sake of myself .

Saturday, May 17, 2008

Memories are gonna be kept in my heart .
Its untold :D
Every lill images of the daily life with people you loved are so significant .
Especially with the people of my family :D
The Maginificence 17

Didn't turn up for band due to House warming for my brother
Finish it at 11pm, still got 3 more hours till 2.30 sia x.x
So went to find Cookie @ hougang mall at 12.45.
But i was late , Sorry :X
She bought a bottle @ minitoons ; Damn nice :D
Spongebob , I Like the color ; white and yellow :D
Then went searching for a hook that is suitable for climbing mountain one .
In the end , bought one that look damn weird x.x
Sirui came and meet us at Cookie's house downstair .
Bought tibits too :D
Went up , waited for Cookie to change and pack her stuff.
& we went looking for her Camp tee shirt .
Finding every part of her house .
In the end , we saw it at her sister's room .
we went screaming away because we finally found it .
Bused to hougang , Sirui was supposed to pay her bills .
But she didn't bring it , so went to buy some stuff
Then went to Control Station and meet them .

All girls wore Sec 2 camp tee :D
So nice sia , 7 people with the orange shirt .
Trained to Habourfront .
Queued for the Monorail and the admission ticket
3bucks :D
Quite cheap :D
So waited for Charlyn to come
& we trained to sentosa :D
Went to Siloso beach .
Played volleyball awhile & soon decided to give up .
Don't know how to play lar .
So went down to play the water.
& the water is damn salty x.x
Played Dare or Dare .
Emma was the first to do punishment.
Followed by Dar , Brendan , Me, Sirui and Suyu :D
Was so fun lar .
But they want Dominic and me to stupid things .
Like Ask Dar to piggyback me .
Ask him to shout Munyee i love you .
& bury me in the sand like what we did to suyu :D
Ahaaaa. Sirui and brendan also had the same situation too :D
So after all , it was fun :D

Poor Anselm alone taking care of our belongings .
Sorry eh , pangseh you :X
Went to buy icecream eat :D
Cookie and Cream with Chocolate marshmallow ?
I not sure alr :X
Shared with Dar :D
After that , slacked awhile then went to bathe .
The Queue was freaking long x.x
Even though we are the No. 9 in the queue
But the people inside took their own sweet time bathing lar .
Only had 4 bathrooms .
& we were right .
We had to spend watching the sunset in the toilet.
So sad man ]:
& we are good residents :D
Me and Cookie bathed together while Sirui and Emma .
Because we wanted to bathe as fast as possible .
& with Cookie is so fun .
we keep talking and laughing loudly.
Even though we went in earlier than Sirui and Emma.
But they finish faster than us x.x
hahas , Doing things with Cookie is so fun :D
I Love Her x3

Took some picture at the beach :D
Is with Josephine right now.
& everybody wore the Family tee :D
Ah is so freaking nice .
Sadly we didn't take family photo , as Dorothy isn't there .
So we went to Vivo for dinner at superdog .
Minqi , Samuel , Josephine and Andrew went kopitiam to eat.
while the rest ate superdog .
The fish and chips are nice :D
The rest went off at 9
While me and dar slowly eat and went off around 9plus .
Trained and bused home.
Chatted alot along the way :D
I Love Dar x3
He sent me till nearby my house.
He thought something might happened to me at the void deck .
So he was watching me till i wait for the lift and he called me :D
Ahahaha , thanks Dar x3
yups and came home :D

Today was so fun :D
Shall planned more Family outings .
& this time , there must be more people going for it.
& i feel that we should have a Family Fund .
It shall named as Magnificence Fund .
Every Month , 1 person donate $1 into it :D
So 17 bucks a month .
But then .
Maybe Every odd week , 1 buck better .
Because 17 bucks might not be enough eh ?
Not sure :D
Shall discuss with other people too :D
& next time Must take Family photo already .
& i loved to be the planning committee :D
Plan stuffs for the family .
I Love The Magnificence 17 x3

Friday, May 16, 2008

Rainbow is a mystic thing
Where it appears after the rain :D

School was per normal :D
& wth , i had to go for PTM sia because i got 25 points for N' level.
Even though i got 60.5% for overall , sians x.x
Went to Hall for morning assembly .
Didn't concentrate in the talk was sleeping away .
Damn tired because chatted with dar on phone last night
1st lesson was Chemistry , did some corrections .
Then was English , it was like a free period chatting away .
Recess was right after that .
Then was Chinese and POA.
Sit with dar dar .
Keep poking him non stop .
Ahaaa sitting with dar is so fun :D
I Love him x3

After school , went to potong pasir meet charlyn to collect the Family Tee :D
Finally its done !
Woots :D
I Love the shirt design :D
So tomorrow will be wearing it at sentosa !
After that , went to dar house .
Trained to punggol , waited for the LRT for 10 mins to operate .
Played 2 rounds of audi while dar go bathe
Then watched horror movie :D
Held onto dar hand , although the show wasn't scary at all
But it was damn disgusting .
Around 4.40 , left dar's house and bused to Punggol Plaza.
Bought Oreo Crush and walked around the mall .
After that Bused again to Hougang mall .
Because dar say want buy couple keychain :D
While waitting for the bus took some pictures :D

After that , around 6 was about to leave hg mall .
Saw Sirui and Brendan at mac :D
So went in , sit for a few mins and went off .

Tomorrow there's band .
But im not into it !
Im more interested in our FAMILY TRIP :D
The Magnificence 17 :D
Going to Sentosa ler !
Finally , there's a family trip .
Although Dorothy, Kenn ,Freesia , Siti and Geraldine couldn't make it .
So going to meet them at 2.30 @ hougang Control Station .
Then shall go Sentosa till night time :D
& had our Family Dinner :D
Wooots !
I can't wait for tomorrow
Hoped the time will pass fast during band time :D